A Little Nutty Maybe?!

I sure do have a thing for eventful weekends, it is some what impressive if I look at my last two. I believe if my summer continues I will take my blog and sell it to a movie writer to craft something up for "The Saga of..."

So Saturday AM I was pretty lazy all day and just bummed around the apt for a while, went out for some lunch and a coffee, watched some TBS movies. I also had sent Martin a message on Facebook, as Dawn and I had noticed that he hadn't been online in quite sometime, just checking if he was alive. Mid afternoon I phoned Phil and Shel to see what they were up to, of course, they were working on their kitchen. I suggested we go out for a drink after they finished up. I layed on the couch for a little while showered, and headed across the river. Before I left I got a call from Mat, he was telling me about his move and asked what my plans were for the evening.

Once at Phil and Shel's we decided we'd BBQ and have a couple of beer. Great, I love some BBQ and Beer. Hung out there until shortly after 9 and went home as I was half falling asleep in their chair. Once home I decided I might consider another beer, but the thought of drinking alone frightened me :( I was MSNing my buddy Todd, who also had two beer in him and was considering another, however was drinking alone as well. We decided to remedy that situation and drink at my place together to remove the "Drinking Alone" issues. We had a great time, tossed back a few beer, talked about Shirley Phelps (Go look the bitch up on you tube) We then decided we'd go to "The bar" for some dancing. Off we trekked, upon arrival I needed to pee like a race horse and Todd needed the bank machine. We decided to meet up at the ATM after my pee break. However, when I left the washroom I walked around the bar about 3 times and couldn't find Todd for the life of me, the panic of being at "The Bar" alone started to freak me out a little so I high tailed it outa there and walked home after spending 6 bucks on cover for being there 10 Minutes :( OH WELL!

Sunday morning I clung to my bed for a while and was awoken by my cell phone buzzing across my night stand - A facebook message, goodness I can't ignore that! So I log in, and had two messages from Martin. One explaining he was alive, and the other wishing we still kept in touch as he needed my ear. Two seconds later, he popped on MSN. We exchanged a few messages and decided we'd go for a drive to catch up on the last two weeks of our lives. The drive went well, we both had a lot to tell each other about the goings on in our lives and it was well needed. After and hour and a half I came home and got a call from Dawn asking me if I wanted to go to the beach! Absolutely! (Pictures to follow)

In my preparations for the beach Mat called me on my cell, I asked him about his first night in the new city. He told me he had a good night, he went out to "The Bar" in Fredericton with a buddy of his (Who he admittedly told me last week was quite interested in him, no matter I am okay with that) After explaining his night he asked me about mine. I told him about Phil & Shels, the bar with Todd. A silence came over the line... He was bothered by the fact that I went to Triangles, and questioned me on it. I started to think, you have to be kidding me right? You just told me YOU went to the gay bar in Fred with a boy who wants you and you're upset I went out here?! The math doesn't add up.... He then asked me what we were, so I explained I didn't really know as I got those mixed signals and assumed it was really nothing since he wasn't interested in a long distance thing. So he then explained his concern about me going out in Moncton, without him and that he guessed this was it!

WOW - NUTTY is all I have to say!

Headed out to the beach with Dawn, stopped for Clams at the Rendez-Vous (They upset my tummy :( ) Around 6 we ventured back into Moncton.

So, I got home, chatted with Martin for a while on MSN and he was quite concerned about some things going on in his life so I advised him he wasn't staying at home and he and I were going for a beer. We had a drink or two at Rouge, then went to the Old Triangle for a few more, had all kinds of conversation about things and realized we can't not be friends. Headed home around Midnight and crashed out.

Monday was a generic day, I went for a drive around Moncton with Serge, had some beaver tails and saw the most beautiful building lots in Moncton (Pictures will come tonight) Dawn called me in the afternoon and we decided to head to an early show and caught The Bourne Ultimatum - Great movie!

Then last night, I stopped into the office to chat with Carrie, tell her all about my weekend and enlighten her on the Phelps stuff on the Internet.

So, my weekend in 10,000 words or less..... A little nutty!!!

Sunshine, Lollipops & Rainbows....

Well... Sunshine, Beer and Dinner?

Friday.... I took a vacation day, to which I woke up at 7:30 am... Oh well, I watched a little bit of discovery, and just relaxed. Dawn MSN'd me mid morning and invited me over to soak up some of the wonderful sun on her deck that afternoon, so I packed up my supplies, and headed over.

Yea, its SPF 8, and I really didn't get that much color. We sat outside for about 3 hours chatting away and catching some of the great sun that showed up for the day!



Then we headed off to Costco to pick up some chicken boobs, and Canadian Tire to hunt down a lawn mower for Dawn. The boob run was successful, the lawn mower has been post poned.


Then around 7:30ish Mat came into town, and we ran over to the mall to pick up a few of the pictures I had printed for him of the previous day at the Dunes. We decided to have dinner at Pastalli on the patio, great idea it was a wonderful evening. The wine was good, the food was splendid. After dinner we came back here and sat and chatted for a while. Then the reality of things started to sink in a little. All the greatness of this week was going to come to a screeching halt after he left tonight, the Uhaul was packed and he was scheduled to hit the road around 7:30 Saturday morning.


The song of the evening was 1973, by James Blunt. Mat got me to Download it and put it on Repeat :P


We layed on my bed and talked, he confuses me a little from time to time. I get the impression he is very interested in me. Then he'll tell me he isn't interested in a long distance relationship. However, the next line would be he wants to see where things go and where life takes us. He isn't ready to jump just yet (Which is fine, nor am I) I just am not sure what he is thinking, are things going to continue?

The boy made my eyes well up (although he didn't see and doesn't know) We layed on my bed, listening to 1973 over and over. Then he started to list off things he liked about me the qualities I had that made him smile and be attracted to me, as he is going through them the reality slid back in. I met someone who I feel fits really well with me, makes me smile, is attractive. But, alas, is leaving town permanently.

I've made a conscious choice again, I am disappointed he's left town, but, if things are meant to be, they will be. I am not going to let myself get overly upset over the present. I met someone really great and had a window of opportunity to get to know him which I think I used quite well.

Hopefully I get to Fredericton to visit over August :)

The Dunes & Ice Cream

So Thursday night, we decided to have supper at a bistro in Shediac. It was grand :) Then we drove out to Cocagne, left my car at his place and went off to the Dunes.

The Dunes turned into a photo shoot and he loves being infront of my camera LOL. FINALLY SOMEONE who likes it! Then we headed into a tiny little ice cream shop in Bouctouche. I made the mistake of picking the line with the family of 30 who were ordering and the mother kept telling the kids they did want sparkles on their ice cream. Mathieu is a bad influence and I had a hard time to keep myself from giggling like a little girl HAHA.


We drove to the Marina to finish off our ice cream and watch all the local drug deals going down. Then we took a drive back to Cocagne, and no joke down a road called "Lovers Lane" how cliche. We attempted to sit in the beach, however the flies had a different opinion :(

It was a great night, very easy to laugh and talk to, I am really enjoying this! Hopefully it will continue!

Here I am. Home for the night :) See some of the pics from the shoot below!

These two are my favorites!

I don't do so well on this side of the camera!!!! :(

Greatness... Superfantastic Even!

So, I have started an addiction to people wanting to be on the "in" and knowing whats going on in my life, rather, The Saga of....

Yesterday was a pretty standard day looking the office, and what I accomplished. After work I thought back to some of the conversation that Mat and I had and remembered him mentioning that he looooove choclate. So, as most of you know how kind I am (HA!) I went and bought some Godiva choclates to kiss ass a little, I also went and replenished some of my missing wine from my rack.

On my way back home Mat called to let me know he was on his way back from Frederiction and would be in Moncton shortly before 7. We decided to go to dinner, so I had time to take a run shower and get ready.

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Really, I am sorry as I continue this story because it is hardly as eventful as my weekend - But some of you are pushing for an update!

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He picked me up (Yes, he even has a car - I hooked a keeper thus far!) and we headed off to dinner. Random conversation over dinner about his day, the jerk starts a new Job with the Provincial Gov, and scored his own office.... With walls.... and a door... AND a window.... I belive I told him I hoped a pipe burst in it over the weekend :) LOL - Someday I will have a window! SOMEDAY!

After dinner, we headed back to my place, and all we did was sit on my couch talked about anything and everything and had a few glasses of wine. (The great thing is the conversation is really easy..it doesn't feel like a struggle) Also, I am getting a chance to practice my French, I was encouraged to speak French for the evening. His Niece and Nephew both currently only speak French and it is important to him that if things did go further that I am able to (Isn't that the sweetest thing...Such a nice uncle) Around 10:30 he realized his Mom would be wondering how is day in Frederiction went, so he phoned her to tell her he was going to stay over with me :) since he had a few glasses of wine, which also gave us the opportunity to finish off the bottle.

Not an extreemly eventful night, but I am pleased with the outcome. This afternoon when I leave work I am going to give him a ring and maybe head out to Cocagne for a bit this evening.

Now... The twist of the day, which I don't believe I have mentioned yet. The position he starts on Tuesday is with the provincial Gov't therefore is located in Frederiction, so Suzanne, maybe you and I will get to do lunch more often if I visit!

PS - Gussy was in NFLD! For those of you who are interested I believe there is a photo circulating of him flashing the harbor in St. John's, I'll see if I can aquire a copy of it. Those of you reading this who are unaware who Dr. Gussy Gregg Gustovin III is, my advice to you is not to ask and pretend you are none the wiser!

Dr Gussy In the flesh (This is a picture from one of the many trips we've had to the wonderful port city, when Gus has surfaced after bangin the hookers up by Chipman Hill Suites and tired to get a free room at the Delta)

Things have a way of working out

Its almost 11 on Tuesday, and I have a grin on my face. Mathieu and I had a lenghty conversation this evening. The outcome of that conversation is we both still want to get to know more about eachother.

Granted I was always still interested, I respected the fact that he was hurt or disapointed in the events that transpired over the weekend. So without promiting he suggested that he would still like to get to know me more. I agreed, however stood firm that by doing so - I didn't want to have to feel like he did me a favor or that I was indebted to him for that. He assured me that was not the case!

So he's off to Frederiction tomorrow for work, but is going to phone me on the way home and we'll touch base and plan something for the evening :) YAY!

Here's a picture I stole of him on Sunday night with my phone when we went out for drinks (Isn't he a cutie!?)

So tonight after work - I decided that I needed to occupy my time with some productive activities, so I went for a walk/run along the river path and out into Dieppe, a good hour and 20 minutes and lots of sweat I felt amaizing and still do afterwards. I am going to make an attempt to get out again tomorrow after work and before Mat gets back to Moncton!

I feel really good about things! One day at a time, and one step at a time.

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So its Tuesday after an extreemly eventful weekend and past week.

Lets back the truck up to early last week - Monday to be exact. Monday I had picked up my camping chairs from Martin's place, the last of my things and his things we had left to exchange since we had decided to no longer spend time together as friends, due to it proving to be extreemly difficult for me to accept the reality of everything (Even thou I tried several times).

Early that week as well, I had a date scheduled in Saint John for Frday, as the week progressed on I felt that it was a mistake to be heading to Saint John for a date being as thou I ended a brief relationship I did have in SJ because of the travel primarilay. However the week continued to present me with opportunity. I met a law student who seemed extreemly kind, intelligent and well on his way to do great things in life. So we set up a date for Friday!

Mid way through the week, I had a wave of kindness and decided to offer a place for Brendan (My ex of 2 years) and Jamie (The new guy he's seeing) to stay while they visited Moncton for the weekend. Many people offered their opinions and told me I was setting myself up for issues. That however proved to be the best decision of the week I made! We had an awesome weekend, a million laughs and reminiscing about the past. It was great! I've also made plans to spend a day in St. Stephen on my next week of Vacation.




So Friday arrives, I had my date with the law student. He was a great guy, but physically really didn't appeal to me. However, the night went on and became late so he ended up staying over. (Notable mistake 1) I also had made tentative plans to see him again, maybe I could learn to like him.

Saturday I was kicking around apt awaiting the arrival of Bren and Jamie, and decided to log into some of the personal sites. Low and behold the opportunities continued again! I got a message from someone who recgonized me from being at the bar once. We chated briefly and realized we both were planing on going out that evening and we'd likely see eachother at the bar, and he offered to buy me a beer when he did see me. Great, WONDERFUL even! Saturday continued, Bren and Jamie arrived we kicked around town for a while. Visited AE, the Pump House for some Blueberry ale and then off to see Crystal and hang out in Ghetto town for a bit.


After some pre drinks at my place the three of us ventured over to Navigators for a beer because we were tired of my place then stumbled up to the bar. The evening continued we danced, chatted and laughed a lot more. I kept my open for the offer for beer. It eventually presented itself around 1am, and I was even more pleasently supprised in person. After a long chat, some dancing we all decided to head back to my place in the rain of course. A wee bit intoxicated myself and the offer for beer fell asleep and awoke mid morning on Sunday.

The 4 of us went to the Homestead for breakfast and the laughs continued it was going extreemly well. That afternoon Bren, Jamie and I headed to see the Simpsons movie and the offer for beer went home for a nap and encouraged me to call him later on.

After the movie, and after I said my farewells to Bren and Jamie as they hit the transcanada I gave Mat a call (Oh Mat would be the offer for beer - I thought I would give him a name) We decided we'd go for a drink just the two of us that night, an actual date! This is where I learned where he grew up, about his family, more about him... The fact he had three degrees and was only 26! One of those being a law degree............. The light went on and I didn't know where to go so I left my mouth closed.

We went back to my place after some drinks and chatted for a few hours, being both tired from the previous night we decided to throw the towel in and Mat went home and I hit the bed to prepare for my Monday back at work.

Monday I decided to post a few photos of the evening on Facebook, which included a few of Mat and I on my couch Sunday morning.... (Notable Mistake 2)


Later Monday evening - My MSN messages started flowing, facebook sent the notice to all my friends I had posted pictures, everyone LOVES to look at pictures and creap into others lives for a short while!! Guess what, not only were Friday night and Saturday night law students together, but they were childhood best friends. G-R-A-N-D! That seiously blew up in my face, and the guilt trip began. I was okay with Friday night being angry with me as I wasn't extreemly interested, although I felt like an ass for hurting him (Very unintentionally I might add!) However Mat, or Saturday night, offer of beer admitted he had been interested in me but no longer was as I wasn't honest with him, big let down, but so is life.

Monday night I sat and thought long and hard what to do, I debated phoning Martin, as he has been my confidant in these situations for the past many months. But I resisted, I removed all my profiles from any personal sites where I had posted. I realized I have been looking and searching too hard for "That perfect person" I am spending too much effort on it.

That brings us to Tuesday; where I was still pretty much feeling like a large ass this morning. So I composed a very long email to Martin explaing my situation and that I just needed to talk. Of course, as sweet and kind as he is he responded with his opinion, I felt slightly better, but also realized I crossed a line backwards.

So that brings me here - To a blog, which will be my new forum to talk endlessly about my concerns to the world for those who wish to read.

WHAT A WEEK/WEEKEND - Is all I have to say, its time to do a reality check and focus on things other then "Mr. Right" if he arrives, great! If not, I am not going to spend hours looking for him right now!